Confessions of a Difficult Person
I like to be difficult. Now, this isn’t an inspiring statement that I wear printed shirts announcing. Nevertheless, I like to do difficult things. I’ve always been the one to zealously take on a strenuous walk to the house with 7-10 grocery bags, because everybody knows you only take one trip from your car to your home after grocery shopping. (Two trips is ridiculous and for people who don’t drink green smoothies.) I’m a little vertically challenged, so instead of asking someone to get something from a high cupboard, I pretend to be Mowgli from the Jungle Book and climb chairs and countertops to get it myself.
Whether it’s something trivial like getting snacks from a high cupboard or something more intense like pulling off a women’s night, the mission always gets accomplished. But far too many times it’s at a higher burden than God intended.
For me, I quickly get super-spiritual confessing scriptures like “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” and [insert your favorite verse here], that I forget to let God be God and me be me. I forget that in all scenarios, I’m the supporting actress, the recipient of God’s grace. However, I often get the roles confused and end up saying more, doing more, stressing more than I’m supposed to.
The word of God is powerful and allows us to accomplish far greater things than we could have ever imagined. However, it’s only by His power. I find that is the slight adjustment that I must make in my mind. Not everything is meant to be difficult. God said come to me, all who are weary and heavy burdened, for my yoke is easy and burden light. For example, if we have a pain in our shoulder we ought not do the difficult thing and muscle through daily when we can instead come to God in prayer and ask that He heal us. If we have a massive project like launching small groups in a short amount of time because we just took over the department, we ought not do all the difficult things like the vision casting, the marketing, yet forget the very best thing – which is praying that God would send the leaders who are passionate about not doing life alone. John 14:13-14 says, “You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!”
So, why lead such difficult lives? Why don’t we ask more often? Granted some of our requests may be a bit selfish or off, but in constant petitioning for it, God will make the proper adjustments in our hearts. What if we were persuaded that just as we can make it in one trip from our cars with 7-10 grocery bags in hand, so too can we make it by simply asking for God’s help more often.