One day, I became frustrated with my husband. Why, I wondered, did he only seem to notice me when I wore baggy clothes and no make up? Why, did it seem, that when I went through the trouble of dressing up and looking nice, that I didn’t even get a nod?
After I voiced my thoughts out loud, he looked at me puzzled, “I guess because you’re not trying so hard. You share the dressed up version of you with everyone else, but the real you is just for me.” Not the response I was expecting! He blew my mind.
Honestly, if I’m being real, I approached him anticipating an argument. I assumed it was because, after 10 years of marriage, I just wasn’t a “wow” anymore and that he was only “in the mood” when I felt my worst. In a matter of minutes I went from being inwardly and outwardly frustrated to embarrassed. I had accused someone who cares so deeply for me, someone who loves every blemish, to no longer finding me attractive. In hindsight, I could see that over the years I had often rejected his praise when it was not reflective of how I was feeling about myself. In the same sense, I wonder how often God tries to speak to us and we ignore his praise because all we see is a mess?
But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
God is not interested in what walks out on the stage. He is not impressed with what happens on the front row. He’s not wowed by your finely crafted words. He simply loves you in all your rawness. He loves it when you cry out to him. He loves it when you ask for forgiveness, when you ugly cry, when you have a shouting match with Him in your closet or a moment of silence with Him in the shower. He sees every dimple, every flaw and yet in those moments, what we deem “ugly” he deems “beautiful.” Don’t concern yourself with the clothing of this world, but…
“Be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you.” 1 Peter 5: 6-7 (MSG)
So live carefree before God in all His glory. He delights in you just as you are.