Recently I was scrolling through Twitter and saw a well-known author mention “Pregnancy & Infancy Loss Remembrance Day.” A couple of years ago, I wouldn’t have paid much attention, but it struck close to home for me this year after a miscarriage in 2011. I was reminded of how difficult that season was in my own life. I went to a routine visit with my doctor early in my second trimester, only to be met with awful news: the little heart I’d seen fluttering several times over the last few months wasn’t beating anymore. I felt like my heart had shattered into a million little pieces.
That tweet reminded me of how painful a season of loss can be. But in the same moment, I was reminded of how much more deeply I came to know God during that time. In that season, one of my favorite scripture passages was Psalm 18, especially verse 28: Lord, you have brought light to my life; my God, you light up my darkness.
Even David – a man after God’s own heart; warrior, king, fearless leader of mighty men – faced some dark times. But in those seasons he kept his heart and his words focused on God’s faithfulness, not his situation. Here are just a few of the powerful statements that we find David declaring in verses 29-32:
- “In your strength I can crush an army.” [I can win against overwhelming odds.]
- “With my God I can scale any wall.” [I can overcome any obstacle I encounter.]
- “God’s way is perfect.” [His way is better than mine, even if I don’t understand it.]
- “All the Lord’s promises prove true.” [He is faithful to keep His word.]
- “Who but our God is a solid rock?” [Even if everyone else lets me down, God will never fail me.]
- “God arms me with strength.” [Because of God, I am strong enough to face whatever comes my way.]
- “He makes my way perfect.” [He holds my my future and every step along the way.]
Pursuing God doesn’t protect us from difficult things. But He does walk with us every step of the way. Today, I know God in a way that I didn’t before. I have strength, compassion, even some dreams and visions for the future that I didn’t before.
My husband and I are excited to welcome a baby boy in several weeks. But the truth is, even if that weren’t the case, God would still be faithful and He would still be good.
In this life, we may experience things we won’t understand on this side of eternity. But no matter what happens, the truth remains that God is good, His plans for me are good and He is worth trusting with every bit of my life.
I love the words of the timeless hymn, Great Is Thy Faithfulness.
Great is Thy faithfulness, oh God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever wilt be.
…Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!
…All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!