I’ve wrestled with expectations most of my life. I grew up in a ministry home. My dad, Billy Hornsby, was a pastor, missionary, and church planter with a big personality and a lot of charisma. Growing up in his home and church, I always felt like my dad expected so much of me. Years later when Chris and I got married, and especially after we started Church of the Highlands, I worried about his expectations of me as a pastor’s wife, along with those of our new congregation. But none of us can live our lives trying to meet any expectation other than the one God has for us.
I don’t know about you, we are all different, but I feel I have so much to do for my family as it grows. I am a pastor’s wife. I love my husband, my kids, my family, and my church. I love Jesus. I live for Him. Based on His calling, I live for the people He has graciously given me. My specific calling is to be Chris’ wife and Sarah’s, Michael’s, David’s, Jonathan’s, and Joseph’s mom. I used to think that maybe as my kids all grew up, I might step into a more active role at the church. But surprisingly enough, I now feel even more of a burden and calling to my husband and family. My kids are starting to add precious in-laws to the crew, and my first grandbaby is on the way.
Their needs all emerge day by day, moment by moment. Sometimes my involvement feels so anointed and appointed by God; other times it is just living life. Regardless, I remain committed to be “on call” for my husband and kids, and all who are added, twenty-four seven. I am so honored to pour all I am and as much as I can into them all! This doesn’t leave much time for me to do a lot outside of the home. As a result, the enemy loves to tell me that I am not making a difference or that I should be doing more. But then I hear the Lord remind me that He created me with gifts and passions to fulfill His calling on my life (Psalm 139:13-17).
I am convinced my role and calling is so important despite the times when the enemy tells me it is not enough to be just a wife and mom. I do know we are all unique, specifically called and differently gifted for beautiful purposes to bring glory to God. I am so thankful for the blood of Jesus that bought me for this purpose. I am serving His family while serving mine, and I am sure He is pleased with me. I am working hard and hoping He is receiving all the glory.
I tell you all this to say: you are one of a kind. You have a job and calling specifically for you. If you don’t know what it is, I can tell you that God will use his Word and your husband or other spiritual authority to speak it into your life. You may be an out-front person. You may be like me, more “behind the scenes” and running the home. Because God called you, whatever your assignment is, it should be done with all of your might and passion. Be encouraged today and don’t listen to any more lies of the enemy. “If God is for you, who can be against you?” (Rom. 8:31).